i'm afraid i have put too much sugar in the kool-aid

so many stars.

"hey baby, look at the sky.
are you looking? really looking?"

he asks me.

no, i am not looking
at the sky.
i'm too preoccupied
with memorizing his
smile.

"come on, just look at it."

no, i am not looking
at the sky
because his face is right there.
so gosh darn close.

"can't you see? that sky is always
there. it's always the same damn
sky hanging above us. the stars
may 'twinkle' and 'dance' but they never change."

"I know."

i softly say.

"you know?"
he says even softer.

"no matter where we call home,
even if our breaths can't reach others skin
we've got miles of sky in common
and all those damn stars."

i say, hoping that makes sense.
hoping he won't leave.
hoping he will stay around
for at least a little while.

he kisses my cheek.
i love you.
i love you.
i love you.

and in that moment
i was not afraid of anything.
nothing at all.
nothing.
at.
all.

look at that sky.
that beautiful, so fucking beautiful sky.